Just when things seem to be looking up, I just have to go ahead and have a rotten day.
Thursday was nice. I had a voice lesson in the morning then got to chill a bit before my Theater 125 class. After that I don't remember all that I did but I think it involved not doing much and then studying and then getting ready for an audition before I facetimed my Mom and Brother. Then I locked myself out of my room but Jinny was there to let me back in. I went to Spanish class after that.
After Spanish, I raced over to the Annenburg Autitorium. Recruiters from Disney were there to talk about internships with the company... It's my dream to work for Disney... I almost cried with joy just to know I was in the same room as people that could give me that opportunity...
Anyways, after that I had my audition for Brand New Theater, which went pretty well. Then I went back to my room and hung out and didn't do too much the rest of the night.
This morning I got up fairly early. I wanted to get to the Drama Center so I could have a walk-in appointment with my college counseler. It was nice: I got some questions answered but in college, counseling is much more of a "you do everything" basis. So that wasn't completely helpful.
Then I got into a conversation on Facebook about Racism which left me fuming and mad and frustrated and disillusioned with society for the next four hours. Needless to say, I could hardly concentrate in class and ranting to my mom helped me a bit. I went for a run which helped me forget but now I'm completely exhausted because of it.
I studied for my Philosophy midterm and this test is going to be a TON harder than I thought it would be, so now I'm stressed about my midterms. Then I went to see "Fefu and her Friends", a play here on campus that I have to see for Theater 125. It was really good.... but I'm so confused by the ending and it left me shocked and, again, quite disillusioned for a good hour.
I've been watching Youtube and doing laundry and getting ready for tomorrow since. I have to get up at 5 tomorrow so I can be somewhere at 6am and then I'll be there until 6pm. I was supposed to bring my stage foundation and a pair of ripped up jeans but both of those things are all the way back home because I was too stupid to think I might need them/I didn't know I was going to need them so now I'm worried I'll be screwing things up. Also, I'm exhausted and everyone around me is getting super sick and I don't want to get sick because that would be awful and really unproductive.
Plus, I'm homesick again and just ready to be done with college.
Why does this happen to me? Can I just drop everything and go to Disneyland for a week and then go home right afterwards? That would be superb, thanks.
Or can we develop one-hour shipping so I could get my jeans and foundation and not have to be freaking out all over again?
Fight on or whatever I guess.
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