High School v. College- September 16, 2013

I don't get it.

High school feels hard, but then, all of a sudden, Wham! College comes out of the blue and proves itself to be harder.

Why is that? I was dealing with more when I was in high school, and yet, for some unknown reason, college seems like I'm doubling that load.

Think about it:

In high school, senior year, I had to be at school, every morning, at 7:15. Here, I have to be in class at 8.

Then, I was in a show, and doing cross country, and keeping my grades up with two AP classes. Here, I'm not in any shows, though I want to be and I'm trying to be, I was going to do a sport but can't, and I can hardly find time to work out.

Senior year: Classes. All day. 7:15-3. Every day. Here, the schedule is completely varied. There are days when I only have an hour or two of class all day.

WHAT is up here?

I mean, the best explanation I can come up with is that college is the first time us kids have really living alone. Not technically, of course: I share a floor with at least 20 other girls and I have a roommate, but still. We're away from our families for the first time, and for a very long time, we have to figure problems out on our own for once... It's a lot of stress on the mind and emotions. Plus, we're all trying to fit in and make friends here, soak in all the events that happen, and start planning for our careers. So, in short, High school was harder physically. It was a big load to carry with things to do and pressure to do it. In college, it's harder mentally and emotionally. Plus, every class you take is the same rigor as an AP class.

Is that a good enough explanation? It's all I can think of.

Anyways, I started today off with good old Acting class. I'm noticing how much focus it takes to think through a scene and actually act it. It engages every single bit of your body and brain... Man, I don't know if what I used to do was real acting or not. This stuff is intense.

Speaking of which, I need to work on making a vibrating noise with my vocal chords without intentionally humming and with my mouth shut...

Anyway, I worked on the chop saw with a girl named Charlie during my Production Lab. We were building some set pieces for one of the shows, so I not only got to use the chop saw, but a pneumatic stapler and wood glue as well. Work the freshman hard. That's how it goes. Oh well...

My day was pretty uneventful, it seems. I didn't do much between that class and Philosophy either, besides attempt to study and take a 10 minute power nap.

I am absolutely exhausted.

Then, in Philosophy, I learned that I have a paper due in October. The outline is due next week. Brilliant. Absolutely brilliant. Just what I needed to hear, you know, exactly. It's not like I'm already freaking out about my Spanish test and Spanish project that I have tomorrow and Thursday or anything.

Gaaahahhhhh

I haven't left my dorm room chair since about 6, except to go outside and get fresh air once.

To be honest, it's partially because I'm trying to get a lot done, and also partially because I'm not feeling very well. I might be just stressed out... I hope I'm only stressed out... but it feels nice to just sit and... well... sit. I'm not doing nothing, but when your stomach feels like a rock while you're walking around, and it doesn't when you're just sitting, that's an improvement!

The other thing that sucks was that Sir Elton John was here tonight performing. Apparently, the wait list was pretty short. I wish I could've seen him perform... everyone coming back from it said it was amazing! Not that I'd have the time... but still... Elton John himself!!!!

*sigh* I'm not done working yet. I have to figure out how to study for Spanish more and get what I need done for 130 tomorrow, but still get to bed at a recent time... It's 11:43. Let's call midnight a recent time?

Dangit. That's not going to happen.

Wish me luck. Fight on, friends.